Monday, June 14, 2010

What's up people? I've had a lot of thoughts going through my head these past two weeks. Not sure how to contain it all. My flight and fight responses are in full swing and when I say that I am being literal. One minute I am planning my escape.  I have the whole scene set - cabin in the woods with no phone or Internet (that sorta thing). Next minute I am roaring like a lion, fists up, teeth clenched and ready for a fight. This city exhausts and exhilarates me. This job exhausts and exhilarates me. This life exhausts and exhilarates me. Running a business, raising a child, maintaining a home, tending a marriage is hard work. Straight up hard. I am coming off 2 big weddings and I am not gonna lie they kicked my ass. One big chuppah install, van rental hassles, more expensive than planned hydrangea, two bouquets down and many details later...I am spent. I am so close to everything right now. My perfectionist nature coupled with my ridiculous need to please every single person in my life is too much. Florists, parents, woman of the world, does any of this get easier? What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, I guess.  I believe this post is turning into a rant now. 

But by weekend's end I was basking in the glow of a job well done. These bouquets were some of my favorite of the season. Flowers you do have a hold on me. 






10 comments:

flwrjane said...

What perfect timing i choose to break from gardening and take a computer break.

I think, like me, you need a vacation. No shame in that.

And the job is always exhausting during its seasons. For me at the end of every December I swear I won't live through another Christmas. And I buy a few lottery tickets.

Your beautiful work is your reward and judging by those bouquets your reward is huge this week.

Take a minute for you, have a pedicure, read some fashion mags, make yourself a bedside arrangement.

And as soon as it's affordable get yourself a driver/setter upper helper for the weddings. Hard to do it all yourself. xoxo Jane

Denise said...

Jane, We've never met in person but I feel I know you well. I could hug you right now. Thank you. xo Denise

Erin Volante Floral said...

Just found your work last week through The Bride's Cafe. This post hit home with me... every year at this time, I too am exhausted, overwhelmed with my life as a mommy, wife, and biz owner, wondering how to do it all, wondering if it's worth it. And then, when I get to deliver gorgeous bouquets to happy brides I know that it is! But wow, am I looking forward to a little lull in weddings to spend some time with my hubs and little girls (or maybe even some time away from them, too, for a teeny bit!). ;)

REBEKAH BROOKS said...

Those arrangements are beautiful!! It is so hard to jungle it all!!

webb said...

That peach bouquet is incredible! You made some bride very lovely as well as happy! Keep breathing - surely July isn't as bad as June....?

chiara said...

oh, i hear you! And I'm not even "working" at the moment! hang in there. the only thing I can do in times like that is remember to take deep breaths. your flowers are always beautiful - your work is beautiful - so hang in there and keep on keepin' on!

ps. i think the humidity these days surely doesn't make it any easier!

Urbanstems said...

Job well done and loved really loved the rant! Alot of head nodding by florist the world over I think! High five for saying it girl and I agree with the lovely flowerJane take a well deserved break.. x

megan said...

It never stops being hard. I will come off a wedding I killed myself over and did a stellar job on and all I can do is obsess over one tiny detail I wasn't happy with that I'm sure nobody noticed except me.

That said, things that will make it easier: learn to set your own boundaries, feel okay about saying no sometimes, and for heaven's sake ask for help when you need it {I'm still learning that last one}

xo

Coriander Girl said...

I feel like your rant was exactly how I feel. 2 weddings down, 2 ass kickings later. I need a holiday. Perhaps we should meet in Paris for a florist girls weekend! Macaroons and fine wine?

Coriander Girl said...

Florists everywhere are booking plane tickets and throwing their floral tape to the wind! xo