Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Be Nice

OK we can breathe now. 2013 wedding season is officially over. Year 4 is done!  Phew. I am just now wrapping my head around the numbers and taking stock as to what went right and what went wrong. The rule that rings true is "listen to your gut". Any time I did not listen to my instincts I have lived to regret it.

Next, I am taking a moment to pause and be grateful. I often jump into the next thing without stopping to appreciate how far I've come. And I've come very far. It's a strange, gratifying, exhausting and challenging endeavour to run your own business. I don't know if I'll ever feel completely comfortable...maybe that's a good thing.

Ending the "labor" part of work right when the frenzy of the holiday season kicks in is a potential recipe for disaster for me. Now is the time I want to make a ton of things, like art and crafts, food and gifts. I want to nest and redecorate, cook and give parties. I want to go to yoga everyday and get massages. And of course, I want to spend time with my husband and little girl. STOP. I guess you know where this is headed. With too many expectation on myself and for my life.....I'm headed for major disappointment and then a good old fashion dose of self flagellation. This shit is so common to me, I've been doing it to myself for as long as I can remember. Well, I'm not gonna lie. I really want to write that I am not going to attempt to do too much. But I really really want to do it all and I want it all to come off perfect! I know, I know...don't say anything.  I can't promise anything. What I can promise is that I will take a moment to pause.

I slept 10 hours last night and it was divine.

Leaving you with some Coral Charms....be kind



7 comments:

Bow Street Flowers said...

how do you get such good color on the peonies in your photos? mine are always overly saturated and the detail and color nuance is a blur.

rachel said...

Oooh, colours of high summer! Lovely.

Bare Mtn Farm said...

Wow, such pretty pinks!

chiara said...

gorgeous flowers! and such an honest post. I'm glad to hear I'm not the only one getting worked up about what I want to do for the holidays.....so much to do, so little time. this year I'm working on lowering my expectations too. take that, hallmark-made-for-tv movie with kids happily decorating homemade sugar cookies, not throwing sprinkles and making more of a mess, and smiling and saying, "thank you mama for this wonderful christmas" the whole time! not gonna happen, but at least I know that now!

Amelia said...

Congratulations on your 4th year and on being balsy enought to do it at what was a very precarious time. Good for you! And on all that stuff you want to get in during the holidays, I have a feeling you will. Enjoy. Thanks for those beautiful flowers to liven up these very dreary last couple of weeks.

robyn said...

very nice... happy holidays !

flowers on my table said...

Sheer perfection! I can so relate to your line of thought, I have the very same disease. My advice, is do what you can, try to enjoy the process, and don't worry about what doesn't get done. I will try to take my own advise also! Much love to you Denise, Linda xx